In a matter of time

Hello All!

I missed my blog so much. And this time off (although I am still off of tumblr and facebook) has been great. You know when someone makes you really angry, and then you step back a little bit, and say wow I've been here before.

My friend and I were supposed to go running at 4:30 today.
I called her cellphone about 4-5 times and I left a message. She never picked up or called back until
5pm when I finally called her and she said, "sooo,"the way she always answers the phone, and she said it was too late and I should have been at her house.

There seems to always be a lack of communication but I think it's more so that I am growing apart from her, we've been pretty good friends since 6th grade and 4 years later, we're better off seeing each other at our Middle School's reunions or at the grocery store than planning to get together. It is just really not working out.

But she made me realize three things.

1) I can get out and run by myself anytime and any day I want, I don't need to rely on her or anyone else. Running is therapy, not a get together.

2) I actually need to fix my hair (haha) and do my homework (oops!) so I shouldn't be running right now anyways.

3) I finally know what it feels like to be stood up kinda. I was really depressed last year and a little this year. And I've stood up a lot of people. It really stinks, especially when the other person is looking forward to it. I will never say no again.

That leads me to another point, and I'm sorry for all the writing guys I will be putting up pictures pretty soon.

Okay, but anyways that point is stop taking things so seriously, you have to breath and let things that don't matter go. All that build up is really bad for you! Like just breath and go for it. Ask a really stupid question, or trip in front of tons of people and laugh it off or make a joke such as, "I'm probably the only one who gets attacked by the floor!"

Bad things can be avoided. Also I need to start saying yes, taking more opportunities of things that scare me, I just said yes to something really big, involving this woman who is literally my inspiration. I think of what she would do, and it helps me to move on from things I shouldn't be analyzing.
Also another plus of this mindset, I found a typewriter and I started making a screenplay for a film I was inspired to write about this boy (I'll just let you wait and see) it will probably be finished by July. Also It is called, "Everybody here wants something from you."

So, wherever you are, enjoy the rest of your Sunday.
And don't be scared for Monday, be excited, it's the beginning of a new week. Full of new surprises and
opportunities! And make sure you tell yourself that the problems you face are just challenges and you might as well go for them! Get out there, and start saying YES!

I love you all!
Casey