In a matter of time

Hello All!

I missed my blog so much. And this time off (although I am still off of tumblr and facebook) has been great. You know when someone makes you really angry, and then you step back a little bit, and say wow I've been here before.

My friend and I were supposed to go running at 4:30 today.
I called her cellphone about 4-5 times and I left a message. She never picked up or called back until
5pm when I finally called her and she said, "sooo,"the way she always answers the phone, and she said it was too late and I should have been at her house.

There seems to always be a lack of communication but I think it's more so that I am growing apart from her, we've been pretty good friends since 6th grade and 4 years later, we're better off seeing each other at our Middle School's reunions or at the grocery store than planning to get together. It is just really not working out.

But she made me realize three things.

1) I can get out and run by myself anytime and any day I want, I don't need to rely on her or anyone else. Running is therapy, not a get together.

2) I actually need to fix my hair (haha) and do my homework (oops!) so I shouldn't be running right now anyways.

3) I finally know what it feels like to be stood up kinda. I was really depressed last year and a little this year. And I've stood up a lot of people. It really stinks, especially when the other person is looking forward to it. I will never say no again.

That leads me to another point, and I'm sorry for all the writing guys I will be putting up pictures pretty soon.

Okay, but anyways that point is stop taking things so seriously, you have to breath and let things that don't matter go. All that build up is really bad for you! Like just breath and go for it. Ask a really stupid question, or trip in front of tons of people and laugh it off or make a joke such as, "I'm probably the only one who gets attacked by the floor!"

Bad things can be avoided. Also I need to start saying yes, taking more opportunities of things that scare me, I just said yes to something really big, involving this woman who is literally my inspiration. I think of what she would do, and it helps me to move on from things I shouldn't be analyzing.
Also another plus of this mindset, I found a typewriter and I started making a screenplay for a film I was inspired to write about this boy (I'll just let you wait and see) it will probably be finished by July. Also It is called, "Everybody here wants something from you."

So, wherever you are, enjoy the rest of your Sunday.
And don't be scared for Monday, be excited, it's the beginning of a new week. Full of new surprises and
opportunities! And make sure you tell yourself that the problems you face are just challenges and you might as well go for them! Get out there, and start saying YES!

I love you all!
Casey

Being Present?

It's been a while, hasn't it?


I've been putting off blogging and spending time developing what I will focus on next in my life.
But that's just the thing, the next, the future, the upcoming. We are all waiting for it. Maybe in hopes that it will be better than right now or better than before. Or maybe just because it inspires us, the unknown I mean, takes us to a place better or more intriguing than where we are right now.

Sometimes people make quotes that say ,  "Live for the Future!" or "Tomorrow will be better." and "Dream for a better tomorrow." While all of these mantras help people shape their lives, including my life, I don't think anyone should live by them.

I was reading a chapter from, "Don't Stress the Small Stuff,"  and when the author said "Be Present," I was so annoyed, quote after quote had told me to live in the past and live for the future, but the truth is neither of these places should be your dwelling. Why this, right now, is where you should be!

Considering those terms, next time you are somewhere, don't go on your phone, don't talk to one person by just saying hi, really reach out and ask, "How are you today?" And in those quiet moments, discover the people around you, for me it's at school, the dreamer looking out the window, the future lawyer debating a wild class discussion, the history buff professing their passion, making it hard not to want to feel passionate as well!

I will be taking a break from blogspot, facebook, and tumblr. I'm asking my dad to change all my passwords, and the only place I will be checking is my email. I need time off, to be present, I need time to take some photos, some film, go for runs, talk to old friends, and find myself again. Someone told me that disconnecting is the best way to do that. Also, I need to focus on maintaining good grades, which are slowly slipping away from me.

So Farewell to anyone who reads this,
I will be back,
Casey