Hi everyone and anyone who is reading this!
How are you?
No, really, how are you?
This is something I wished I asked people more often. I tend to get caught up in my own troubles, and when someone gets irritated with me, it become a very selfish time. I can't see that they might be dealing with something on the other side, all I see is that they hate me, etc. etc. etc. which is (by the way) never true at all.
Today that happened again and I realized I am not living life. There is a difference between dwelling and living. Dwelling is sitting there like a sack of potatoes waiting to be picked up and delivered. Living, is getting up, getting out of your comfort zone, going to try new things, etc.
I get so caught up in my expectations and what if's that I never truly allow myself to be happy with what I have, now.
Next week I am taking a break from all things related to the internet, and I am making myself a challenge.
- only text/phone calls
-no T.V. or internet (newspapers are allowed)
-no gmail or Facebook or blogspot and absolutely no tumblr
- every morning I have to run
- I have to step back from the day and remember all the good that happened, remember funny things that happened, remember something in the news, remember a picture I took, remember that really good run, remember to send gratitude to all my supporters (all in my journal)
- sending letters is wonderful and definitely alright!
-make a challenge once a week
(the whole first two weeks of July)
-play more games (board ones)
-get a job and pick up a few hobbies
-save save save for a new bike and new books and a new lens and a new camera (wow that was a lot)
-have a disney movie marathon with my buddies
-go out to eat (on me) with my friends or newer friends
-have a bombing 4th of July in the Nation's Capital
- Aim to eat healthily and aim to buy groceries and cook food with my family or by myself
-Aim to get outside, hiking, biking, swimming, playing with neighbors, soccer, sprinklers and slip and slide, washing cars, walking dogs?, whatever it is I will do it.
then the whole month of august I will start my new project to go amish for 30 days.
I just really need to find something to be passionate about, and I just think I know what that might be.
I need to treat my friends and family better.
I need to be grateful for now, what I have now, and what I'm doing now.
I need to make plans, not long term ones at all, short term all the time, because the longer I wait the longer I have to change my mind.
I need to run everyday, because I need to train for XC this fall, I love running and it keeps me happy, and it's like therapy. And I need to learn to do it alone. ( it's not like you take your friends to therapy with you)
I need to reach out to my aunt, who needs an explanation from me, because I sincerely trust her, and I don't know who else will understand.
I need to practice meditating before acting upon something in a way that I would regret.
I need to read read read read read.
Okay I don't know if this will help anyone but
fake it till you become it,
bye!!!
<33 Casey
